During my meditation session today, I ended up crying in front of a stranger when I was asked to share a sad moment in my life. Little did I realize that God was trying to heal me before my next and final shot with IVF-ICSI. In this session, I was mortified to come to terms with the notion that I blamed myself for our last miscarrage in Feb 2009. I know it sounds ridiculous, but I felt that I had disappointed my husband and only I could be blamed. But in the quiet of today's 20 minute forgiving meditation, God helped me understand that I had to forgive myself in order to move on.
I feel like a hazy veil has been lifted. Just yesterday, I was dreading the thought of 4 daily abdonimal injections for superovulation, but now, I feel renewed. Hallelujah!
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